Rejection. For a long time I was rejected. Or maybe it was also just an impression on my part. Let's say that for a long time I felt rejection.



I was always too much. I talked too loudly, laughed too loudly, moved too much, was too disruptive, demanded too much attention, I was just always too intense. So when I wanted more, I got the opposite effect and people tended to not listen to what I was saying or give me less attention than I was looking for. To pretend to listen or to tell me to shut up that I had said enough.

At school, I spent a lot of time outside the classroom. I was asked to leave the class that I was disturbing. The result was that I felt unloved or misunderstood for a long time. Two factors that did nothing to reduce my rejection wound. Quite the contrary, this wound actually progressed over the years.

Then one day, I don't remember what was the trigger, but I had an epiphany.


For several years I made sure to work on myself. I saw to my personal development to always aim to be, become and embody the best version of myself. And then, I just understood.

Well, I wouldn't say that making this realization is pleasant. It is a passage that can hurt, because it is a mourning in itself. I believe that it is a necessary evil to understand and work in this direction to think about one's wounds and grow. But why is this a mourning or a necessary passage? Because, you realize something that must change, on which you must act and therefore move on.

So, let's look at this as if it were the best thing that could happen to you!


What if this feeling of rejection you were feeling was a way of making you realize and understand that you are simply: not in the right place at the right time.


That you are not where you should be! That you are trying to fit a round puzzle piece into a triangular space.

So, if you cling to a person, you persist in staying in a job or you persist in staying in a situation, but in all of this you are not aligned with who you are, your values ​​and your life mission. In fact, you are restricting yourself in a useless relentlessness. It is a bit like you are rejecting yourself at that moment, that you are denying the person you really are in order to try to mold yourself to a person, a situation or an event that is not you, for you.

The universe dictates paths to you. It will sometimes also suggest that you go through darker places, because it wants you to see how to rekindle certain sparks lost in your own rejection. It is up to you to decide whether you turn back, whether you will curl up in a corner and bury your head in the sand in front of this or whether you will nourish the spark, cherish it to transform it into a beautiful flame and a fire powerful enough to push everything back and make you see how far you have come and all the possibilities now open to you.
May 26, 2021 — Sonia Charpentier